Health, Social Life or Money For Bills

somehow it was easier just after chemo ended

Because I have so little energy I’m forced on a daily basis to choose between urgent things such as earning money to pay the bills (what savings I had dried up during chemo) and important things such as my long term projects and need to become properly fit. Choosing what I should concentrate on out of getting fit, having a social life, working and keeping my place clean and tidy isn’t fun and I’m never sure I’ve done the right thing.
This week I’ve decided to make my home environment and administration a priority. Two days ago decided that the best way to do this was to ride on the stationary bike for 30 minutes three times a day but have come to realise that it’s impractical to do this if I want to get anything else done at all.

I’ve slowed right down because I’m so desperately tired and I’m sleeping far too much as well. So there simply isn’t enough time in the day to do everything that a normally healthy person would take for granted. It’s not yet quite 18 months since my chemotherapy ended but I can’t help wondering when this hard, hard slog is going to ease.

Although I’ve been too tired to post anything for a while, I hand wrote this on February 16th